Watching the movie Nell with Jodie Foster. I love this movie, but it makes me so sad. It reminds me of how it feels to come out of agoraphobia. The whole world feels scary and unreal and I'm not used to it, but with my "ga inje" (guardian angel) I feel better and safer.
I feel so sad right now. The loss of who and what I used to be, and who and what I am now. God dammit, why did you do this to me? I want my fucking life back! I want to dance and sing and act and enjoy my life again. I don't want to be this shell of a human being, afraid to drive too far or get too upset.
Where am I? I want to find myself again.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
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